Brenda Smallwood
Dear Mama:
It's been almost 3 years now, but my heart hurts just as much as if it were only yesterday that I held you in my arms as you left us. I miss your soft, beautiful hands. I miss your hugs and "I love yous". I miss the smell of your favorite perfume. I miss your face. I miss everything about you. How I long for just one more day with you... or just a minute.
How you would adore Hunter! He's a "ring-tailed-rounder" for sure. And you'd be so proud of the girls! Mandy is a homeowner now! So are Katie and Anthony. Caitlin is kicking booty in the Air Force. And Carsyn is well on her way to becoming one of the finest young attorneys I believe I'll ever know.
We're doing okay, but all still trying to find our way without you. Just last weekend, I started to call you to share some news... but then remembered you were gone. Sometimes, like tonight, I go outside and look at the stars and talk to you. It's not the same as having you here, but once in a while, if I listen really closely, I imagine I can almost hear you telling me how much you love me and that everything is going to be okay. I hope so, mama, I really do. Please keep praying for me. Your "strong one" isn't feeling quite so strong nowadays. I need you so much. Your wisdom and guidance. Your hugs and prayers. If you can, please look down and check on me every once in a while... and, if possible, ask God if He'll allow me to feel your soft hand on my cheek so I won't feel so alone. I love you, mama. So much. And I miss you every day that I live in this world without you. There's a hole in my heart that will never be filled until, God willing, I see you again.
Love you forever and always,
Bren
